[[about me]]

Used to be Party animal and can be seen partying from Wednesday to Saturday every week... Been independent at a very young age and learning lots of things thru the hard way... I can be very ruthless for that is my nature instinct from the hardship that i've been thru... That make me who i am today..


[[likes]]

Forever In Love - Kenny G

[[hates]]

Why would u ever want to know???? u want me to hate u, u are most welcome...


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[[Friends]]

| Lemon |
| Vik |
| Jac Jac |
| Timon |
| Esly |
| Shy Guy |
| Ade |
| Juliza |
| Su-Ann |
| Aida Story |
| IkI |
| Shedah |


[[Wishlist]]

Outdoor wedding
PSP slim
I want my knight in shining armor
Backpacking
Loose at least 5kg
Car License
Shopping spree
snickers ball
Nike Running shoe
Make new passport
New Pair of glasses
MP3 / MP4 player

Saturday, July 19, 2008

I should sleep soon as i'm gonna have a hectic day at work tmr.. Thank God i'm off this Sunday... At the moment i feel like bumming around trying to get some sleep... Normally, if i didn't get to see Saz, i would miss him tremendously but after i get my thinking straight and sort out my feelings, i decided that i don't miss him anymore...

Sound crazy but its true... It feel like he is just somebody whom i would hang out once in a while... Had fun with each other company and goes our separate ways resuming our daily routines... I know i've been going gaga blogging abt him every now and than and how i miss him so but this month it seem different..

After our honeymoon, i do miss him for about a week or so... I decided to do some soul searching about us being together.. I don't seem to see us being together getting all tangle up in a mess and stuff like that.. I used to have strong feeling about it but after i realize that he still kinda hurt about his past relationship after all this years.. I know there won't be a chance for me to be in his life..

Even if there is, he won't treasure me.. I don't want him to be with me and when certain things we do together brought him back to the past recalling about his ex.. So i guess we could only be friends and not more than that..

Maybe one day when i found that special person who can make me feel who i am, without having to please them, i would go with the flow and move on and open a new chapter in my life... He's a current chapter who would be left stagnant and fill in as and when he has the time... When i start opening that new chapter, i shall close the current one and shelf it as well..

Somehow i feel like i'm numb to guys and relationship... At the rate i'm going, i don't think i'm ever gonna get married... hahaha... I guess those relative who predicted that of me will have their wish come true... If that happen, i shall start thinking of migrating and leaving in solitude... oh well.. i guess i shall play some games before going to slp... doodles..


angelic-devilordevilish-angel
3:20 AM
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