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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

I've been listening to my blog song and somehow i feel that song kinda relate to my life right now with Saz... Been thinking about it and wondering to myself "what's next?" I can be a bitch at times but when come to this kind of situation, i seem lost... I'm happy being with him and he has the feature and traits of a guy that i always want (more like hoping for)... When i get to know him, i couldn't believe i'm so lucky to get to know him... I was like close to drooling at that time but have to keep myself cool... I must thank G for bugging me to come down or i'll miss the chance of knowing him...

"So what's next?" I seriously have no idea what i'm going to do with myself... At this point of time what i know is that i need to stay focus on my job and had to work my ass off to show that i'm a capable leader and they did not choose the wrong person to lead and not be lead... Its not easy especially when people in the higher authority or even colleagues in the branch trying to find the slightest mistake that i've done.. Sometime due to a small issue, they could make it big... At time i felt like i've been sandwich by them.. I know its not easy but i have to keep on perseverance... Like Saz always tell me "that will make u stronger..."

What shall i do tomorrow since i'm off... Hmm... I should have change my off days to work tomorrow.. At least that will keep me occupied for a while.. The last time i met Liz, she make me think of something about Saz... She know that he stay alone and stuff like that but the one thing that she make me think is that, do i ever cross my mind that i'm just another girl to get laid and he can always bring any girls back home without me knowing it... He can do anything he want behind my back... I was so over the moon until she have to cement me to the ground and that set me thinking... I've put it aside until it suddenly cross my mind a minute ago...

If he really have someone else beside me, well i guess its time for me to move on with my life... It might hurt me but Oh well... what's new!!! Just get over and done with it.. The main objective in my life right now is to work hard so as to secure my corporate ladder.. I'm almost there but not there yet.. I have like 3 months to prove to them that i can do it..

I really hope Saz is not as bad as what people might think.. I hope he would prove people wrong and someone i can trust... *sigh* I guess i'll just play game till i'm tired and than sleep... I better stop thinking about him.. ciaoz~

angelic-devilordevilish-angel
12:06 AM

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