[[about me]]

Used to be Party animal and can be seen partying from Wednesday to Saturday every week... Been independent at a very young age and learning lots of things thru the hard way... I can be very ruthless for that is my nature instinct from the hardship that i've been thru... That make me who i am today..


[[likes]]

Forever In Love - Kenny G

[[hates]]

Why would u ever want to know???? u want me to hate u, u are most welcome...


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[[Friends]]

| Lemon |
| Vik |
| Jac Jac |
| Timon |
| Esly |
| Shy Guy |
| Ade |
| Juliza |
| Su-Ann |
| Aida Story |
| IkI |
| Shedah |


[[Wishlist]]

Outdoor wedding
PSP slim
I want my knight in shining armor
Backpacking
Loose at least 5kg
Car License
Shopping spree
snickers ball
Nike Running shoe
Make new passport
New Pair of glasses
MP3 / MP4 player

Monday, May 19, 2008

Before anyone start reading this.. Got to warn u, its gonna be very depressing.. Suddenly i feel like this today... Even the song sound depressing.. So if u don't want to be depress, don't bother reading my blog...


I'm confused right now... I've been super free for the past few days and the least thing that i expect that gonna happen to me is thinking about Saz... Suddenly i miss him terribly and i want him by my side like the old days but my pride keep me from doing so... Suddenly i start humming the song by trisha yearwood and i decided to put it in my blog... I need to cool myself down.. Thank God i have half bottle of wine so i could cool myself down...

My worked has been affected badly... I tried hard not to think about him and get over it... I thought i'm strong enough to stand on my own feet but right now at this very moment i suddenly feel like a loser... A sore loser who can't get over a guy... I wonder to myself... Do i really like this guy? If i do like him, what make me like him?

Somehow i realize that what i like about him is that its so easy being around him and being myself... For i don't need to impress him to like me but just being myself.. It feel so easy.. Unlike my previous ex, i have to be someone i'm not just to impress him..

Today i watch What happen in Vegas.. Its a nice show... Maybe that show just remind me of him.. Sigh... I seriously need to get a life soon... I've been strong over the years.. I don't want because of a guy my defend are down.. This ain't the way... Sigh... I wonder if i'll ever see him again.. The last time i got over it, he came running into my life.. When i thought he will always be there, he gets out of my life telling me he's busy with work and more work.. This is really torturing me.. Why??? Sigh....


angelic-devilordevilish-angel
3:15 AM
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